I Thought I Loved You Then

You were by my side when he was gone

You held me in your arms.

I felt less lonely, far less wrong

Amidst your calming charm

And when my tears were fully dried

You made me smile again.

I laughed and then I understood.

I thought I loved you then.

On a frozen February night

You saved me from regret.

You came to me and held me close

And helped me to forget.

Then after one long-waited kiss

Unknowingly dove in

One moment held in thoughtless bliss.

I thought I loved you then.

With letter written true and sweet

You captured me with words

An honest plea you dared not speak

That so longed to be heard.

And as I read it, my heart stopped,

The wait was at an end.

For in your web I had been caught.

I thought I loved you then.

We never spoke. Your presence gone.

You left me filled with fear

And thinking I had been so wrong.

Eyes always filled with tears.

You said that you’d misunderstood

And spoken falsely when

You’d spoken of our future good.

I thought I loved you then.

I closed my eyes and drifted off.

You starred within my dream.

The thought was just a simple thought

No significance, it seemed.

Then what to my intense surprise

I was wakened once again

By the fire burning deep inside.

I knew I loved you then.

But still insisting you’d been wrong

Your words cut in so deep

To tell you that I loved you

Were the hardest words to speak

And still you turned and walked away

Said we could still be friends.

I knew I’d hold out anyway

Because I loved you then.

Through ups and downs and trials and fears

We cut each other deep.

Too many times, too many tears

For thoughts we could not speak.

Two long years would by us fly

And countless words condemn

But every day that passed us by

The more I loved you then.

And then one night, up late with you

I tried to calm my fright

Of losing that moment, that it not be true.

I held the memory tight.

My arms around you holding close

Thinking of what we’d been,

A miracle was what you spoke

When you whispered you loved me then.